Where did time go?

3 months old~June 2005
19 months old~October 2006
2 1/2 years old~August 2007
3 years old~March 2008

While the last few weeks of waiting for Liliana to come have been pretty uncomfortable and a little stressful at times they have been a blessing in disguise. God has used this time to help me to reflect on His goodness and faithfulness these past three years with Talia. I have been so blessed to see this little girl grow, love, change, explore and learn. I love being her mommy and feel so honored that I get to witness how God is moving in her life. The last couple of weeks have been treasured times full of giggles, cuddling, book reading, memory making and absorbing the last its and bits of being a family of three. I am excited to enter this next chapter and season in our lives together as a family but am feeling a bit anxious as this change happens. I am eager to get to know this new person that God has knitted together, to discover her personality and to go through all of the different stages that go by so quickly that first year. My prayer is that I don't stress this next year by....that I would savor, enjoy and treasure this new season of my life. When I first had Tal I was so worried about making a mistake as a new Mom, trying to get everything right and while through my worrying I still had precious times with Tal, I want to let go any insecurities now instead of worrying through these next few months.

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

~Philippians 4:4-7

God has also used this time to quiet my heart and help me to regain focus on Him. I have found myself longing for more depth with Him, to know Him more fully, and to truly discover who I am in Him. I have a tendency to want to play hide-and-seek with God...in my mind I sometimes think that if I hide from Him then He can't see me. He has so gently helped me to come into His light and fix my eyes on Him...the author and perfecter of my faith. I pray that this new season of life helps me to dive in further into a more intimate relationship with my Savior, my King. May I discover more depth of Him and abandon myself as He molds me into the woman, wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend that He wants me to be. The following verse has been like a lifeline for me these past couple of weeks and I hope that it continues to be where I focus...may I be a woman who fears the Lord.

"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."

~Psalm 31:30